I've been thinking about how hopeless a romantic I've made myself become. About how I've idealised having a relationship with someone and how it would make me complete. Well, maybe not complete, because I'm already complete in Christ. But it would fill up something that I feel is lacking in my life. There's the problem summarised in that sentence right there. I feel that there is something I lack and therefore I feel as if I'm incomplete.

There is truth in the fact that I'm alone and the truth is it makes me feel depressed. But there is a deeper truth that I'm pressing in to find. The deeper truth is that I lack nothing. I have all I need in Christ! I have fullness of joy in all circumstances... Not because there are joyful circumstances (sometimes there are!), but because I count it all as joy. The importance is that I rejoice in what matters. That is what builds my faith, that is what destroys the distractions. Its these distractions that hinder prayer. Prayer is effective and powerful. Thats a given. The devil cannot stop the power of prayer but he can distract the person who prays. He can shout lies in your ear so that you don't hear the whispered answers to your prayer. I want to break out of that cycle. I want to be listening to the voice of God instead. I want my relationship with God to be strong and stable.